And no more trying too hard. Maybe if I just sit and be a lazy bum something'll come to me. :/
Just, go with the flow..
I'm not that kind of person! >_< I like to take motherfriggin action!

Maybe it was just too early in the morning..
But it's evident she doesn't like me. 9_9;

Fuck disappointment, I'm better than that :/
And screw feeling inadequate! I am not >:0.

nope, she doesnt like me. ._.

Maybe I'm just a cog meant to fit into another place...

I can't make her smile like that, wtf.

._. ttyl self esteem

[pijTjRrgpoksdgofee jealousy.

Dubbiel and Warren shouldn't be making music. =.= or, well rapping. They're nice guys, just not good rappers. They need to do some cyphers or something..

Whitest Black guys I know..

For those tuning in, I throw all my left over angst here. So, don't read it if you're looking for my normal sunshine happy cheeriness. That's all facebook, tumblr, aim.
I've been feeling so alone lately, not used to all this change..

All I see you do is complain about EVERYTHING on facebook statuses. God damn it you annoy me, you have so much but don't see it! If there is a good Lord, he isn't doing much for you.

I have all the time in the world for everyone else, it's just never the other way around. :/

I've come to learn that I am nothing but a small part of your existence. Even though I want to be something greater, I guess all I can do is move along./sigh/

Seriously, give me a chance? I'm a nice guy. ^_^; or so they say. I'm egotistical, and selfish. But I can be more :/

in the end I wasn't interesting enough, and didn't have a cell phone to remain in contact with her.
Eh, I guess I'm not too interesting.

I'm kind of okay with that. :D I feel good

spent 2 hours helping a friend with a paper. feels good :] at least someone was willing to put up with me ._.; no one else to talk to/talked to me besides Julian today.

learned some new cheesy pick up lines. /Made up.

Girl what kind of blood do you have, I think you're my type.
You make me want to be a pirate because I'm hooked.
girl you must be trash because I'm taking you out

Got a free mcChicken from McDonalds even though I paid for one, I got two.
I was hoping by some weird twist of fate she'd pop up and I'd be like

hey, have some food with me

I got out of work, and into the city by 5.
She gets out of illustration by five.
I was hoping to get lucky.

I can't keep her affections or attention like he can, I guess I'm just boring.

I don't mean to brag, but I think I have successfully detached myself a little from her, which is good. I need to be more like me. Show her who I really am, how I really am. I want her to like that part of me, not that crazy party that goes gaga over everything, I mean, I'm a pretty cool person if she wanted to know me. But if she doesn't I guess it's her loss.

Feeling forever aloneee, everyone has lives and I don't.. ._. I need to get out more.

Bad, bad bad Patrick. >_< I can't let my imagination run like that too often.

I just imagine me meeting up with her, while she's baby sitting her little cousins at a park or something. And she'll greet me, and I'll greet the tiny ones. One will hit me and she'll be excited. I'll just be like "What, you're my girlfriend? I can't believe that, you're too beautiful!" =_=.

stupid hopeless romantic thoughts.

haaaaaaa~

She can't dance

she can't sing,

but she sure knows how to steal my heart -_-;

Well, I can't say I'm not used to last minute changes. I was a little disappointed ._.;
but I still chuckled when I read this.

I'm too happy to care as much, but it sucks butt that I'm addicted to serotonin.

dispattisback1 10:57 pm
Reality check, did I just ask the girl I have a crush on to let me hang out with her, and read at a park, and she told me to bring my sketch book?
tlx1124 10:57 pm
hmmm

yep

why whats up?
dispattisback1 10:57 pm
I was wondering why I had a shine in my step, haha

nhiarei 10:02 pm
haiiiiiiii pattehh
dispattisback1 10:02 pm
What's up soggy? :]
nhiarei 10:02 pm
tired

lol
dispattisback1 10:02 pm
I got an extra blow dryer if you need any help, haha
nhiarei 10:02 pm
up reading

i need

a new straightneer
dispattisback1 10:03 pm
just let it sun dry for a few days, if it doesn't work I'll bake you some cookies and give it a proper burial. :D
nhiarei is away 10:03 pm
FEWD 1s ago
Stay in touch. Send nhiarei a text message
dispattisback1 10:03 pm
I don't think you'll need it though
I like pornstar hair ;D haha
nhiarei 10:03 pm
LOL

LMAOOO

I always feel like I'm pushing myself just to be let down.. I just want some messages of positive reinforcement.

I wish I was messaged more often then I messaged others. I feel lonely ._.

even more when she doesn't want to/can't talk to me. fff. Must not be dependent. I don't really need her or like her like that, I just have a small school-yard crush.

But if so, why do I want to be noticed by her so badly? :/